Life: Keep Riding the Bike
2:41 PM
I was always mesmerized by all of my unreached dreams which
allure me all the time to make me struggle in achieving it. Going up and down,
getting upset and surrender, those have always been the extra ingredients accompanying
me on the path along the way. Finally, right after I eventually reach it, all
my expectations become the opposite. It is not that good as what I imagined
before. It is not that easy and fun as what I expected it would be. It is even
not what I hope to be. I don’t mean that I dislike it, otherwise, it makes me
realize that “in life you will always feel both sadness and happiness” if
previously, I thought that, living in the dream could be my total happiness, I
figure out that it is definitively wrong, because we will not only get a real
happiness in life. Life is a combination of two opposite things and feelings,
that’s why we should keep the balance. Just as what Einstein said:
“Life is like riding a bicycle, to keep your balance, you
must keep moving”
…well, unless you can’t ride a bike..
Being a thousand miles away from home brings you a million
feel of yearning. I miss home, I miss my family and friends, I miss eating
Indonesian foods, I miss every single things that I do for my daily basis. If
before I always complain for a flat daily life that I have, now, I have to
admit that I miss doing it. Here, I have to get used to everything. The
differences of the society, the surprising different culture, and most
importantly, the different taste of foods. It seems like I have to force myself
to adapt in this new kind of life.
It takes time. Absolutely. Life needs process and slowly it
would let you to build a better you. The question is how capable you are in
being patient to the matter of time?
Another thing is homesickness, in order to just heal it, I always
depend on that what we call “technology”. If many of us blame it for changing
the human beings into its slave, or dependent, or disconnected from the real
life. I would say that I totally disagree with them. Technology is the only
medicine that could calm down my eagerness to meet my beloved ones. I couldn’t
say more if it does not even exist.
Besides, I become more and more in love with my culture of
origin. I am always proud to say that I am Indonesian. While, of course, I
represent those hundred million people in Indonesia. Well, what I do, I say, I
like or what I am capable could be regarded generally as Indonesian. This is
what stereotypes play its role. It takes a special burden. Sometimes.
There are actually many things that I would like to mention,
as being alone here, as being the first-timer living abroad. Meanwhile, if I
tell you, I must be considered as the most complaining person in the world. NO,
I don’t want to be. So, I only bear in mind that my main mission right now is
riding this bike. Becoming balance and maintaing harmony to every single things, to everyone and to
every problems that I may face. This is my decision. I fight for being here,
thus I deserve to enjoy it. To enjoy both the bitter sweet of living here.
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